My Dear Angel,
Please forgive me that I have scared you. We do not want to end up our relationship like Last Tango in Florence or Fatal Attraction.

So please read the last poem by Halina Poswiatowska:

ta miłość jest skazańcem
zasądzonym na śmierć
umrze
za krótkie dwa miesiące

na świecie jest przestrzeń i czas
odejdziesz ode mnie

na świecie jest niemoc i konieczność
nie zatrzymam cię
żadnym pocałunkiem

I will take care of our child.

Good Night

Your Niccolo

My Dear Joan of NC,
I have checked our BDG and it seems that we might expect a buy signal in 1-2 days, so be awake !!

Good luck with your babies,

Good night

My Dear Niccolo,
I still think that we should have a baby together...please, think about it....please.....
I've had a baby with you (BDG) and now it's your turn to make a step forward and fulfill my dream (WDK) ... I already see us on the General Assembly and walking among our miscanthus....

Kłaniasz mi się z pokładu -
Wspaniały, szalony!
Odjeżdżasz - Bóg wie dlaczego!
A w ślad za Tobą sen mój
W łódeczce zrobionej
Z dawnego listu
Słodkiego.
O, już się zanurzyła w morzu do połowy!
Nie dogoni Cię
I nie wróci.
Masz tam przy sobie
Biały pas ratunkowy...
Czemuś go Miłości
Nie rzucił?


P.S. I love Pawlikowska - Jasnorzewska and this is my poem for you.
See you ;-)

My Dear Joan of NC,
I would love to have a new NC baby girl with you, but I do think that we cannot have her now. It would be reasonable if we wait until our first baby BDG grows up and then we decide to have a new one. Can we afford to have 2 kids ? Markets are very volatile now. Moreover, I do not think that WDK is a good investment in a short term or even long term. I do not believe in OZE. New resources of gas will solve our problems for 20-50 years or even longer. But most important of all, I cannot wait so long. We have to meet in Florence ASAP !!!

Many thanks for 'your' poem. I like Pawlikowska - Jasnorzewska:

Nie widziałam cię już od miesiąca.
I nic. Jestem może bledsza,
trochę śpiąca, trochę bardziej milcząca,
lecz można żyć bez powietrza!

but I love Halina. She was so passionate like you. I love your passion for stock markets and shares, especially WDK ;-) What are you passionate about beside shares ?

Please could you read the below article ? What do you think ?
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-51080/Why-sex-affair-passionate.html

Your Niccolo,

Hello My Dear, I would be interested in many things, but I don't have enough money to develop my interests... and time. Generally I love life and I see many things to be improved. Last year I was interested in politics, I even went to some political meetings, I met some politicians but what they say it's bullshit. I'm still thinking about it, though.
I also started writing a book, a dictionary. I already have 55 pages. It's a financial dictionary, so I'd like to go to Italy one day, sit in peace in some libraries and have a month free to read financial books, find new words, translate something, ecc.
I like meeting wise and open minded people that don't try to convert me, people of different religions, cultures, that can enrich me. And of course I love......cooking!!! (Remember how we met?). Right now I'm testing a new diet of Dr. Perricone from Hollywood. It's based on sea food, fish and vegetables. Delicious.
What about you?
I'd like to ask you so many questions; I think that you have many hobbies. Please, tell me something about them.

I read the article....I don't know if my answer will satisfy you but it's hard to answer this question. 1. I think that not every person is ment for us. 2. sex is not everything 3. very often when we get married we don't know ourselves. That's why many people have second wives. Pawlikowska used to say that first marriage is a mistake, second is good but the third one is great.
That woman's marriage was based probably on sex, they married young and that's all what she new: husband and kids. Then she started talking with someone that opened her eyes on many different aspects of life. It's hard to say if it's love or it's just lust for something different, intellectually deeper. The only problem that we idealize people we don't know, but if we get to know them and we still are attracted by them, it can be real love.
I've noticed that people of passion don't need traditional wives, dinners every day, they need a lot of freedom to develop their passion, trust and open minded wives that have their passions because such women understand others' passions.
Examples: Kulczyk, Czarnecki (his first wife wanted to keep him for herself that's why they divorced), Frida Kahlo (she was sick, she drunk, smoked, cursed and Diego loved her) and many others.
I really recommend you that movie "Diary", just watch it during Christmas.
And the last thing: we don't know how to explain Love.
Uff, why are you asking me these difficult questions, if you don't want to have a baby with me, he, he, he......;-)

My Dear Joan,
You impressed me again. You are a very wise Angel !!! I have to get up early morning to catch my flight to Warsaw so I cannot answer all your questions, but I had many hobbies and passions:, cycling, bridge, climbing, sailing, visiting interesting places around the world, even Japan, reading books and poems, watching films (Last Tango in Paris ;-) , but now .... my passion is work and my family.

You should know this poem by Ks Twardowski:

Śpieszmy się kochać ludzi, tak szybko odchodzą
i ci co nie odchodzą nie zawsze powrócą.
I nigdy nie wiadomo mówiąc o miłości, czy pierwsza jest ostatnią, czy ostatnia pierwszą.

http://ada2008.wrzuta.pl/film/6SudTwVEZPD/spieszmy_sie_kochac_ludzi

I said I would love to have another NC baby with you, but I cannot wait util the baby will be old enough. Do you remember our main goal? FLORENCE !!! What about FINen ? We might have this baby next Monday ;-)

Wish me a good trip. We will be so close .......:-)

Good night

Your Niccolo.

Good Morning My Dear,
of course, I wish you a good flight and I will be thinking about you today. You know, I have a very strong impression that we've already met somewhere in life; I don't know yet when and where but we've met.

Fiten no, I already have one baby of this kind and it's enough!! Our baby is going down like Titanic (I watched it yesterday on tv), so I think that we will rather have a cup of coffee somewhere in Poland, he, he, he...

I've already started to loose my patience and I'm thinking of leaving the stock market for a while. The crisis is going to last for a while, so who knows what's going to happen with the markets...:-(
I think I'm getting depressed; Christmas is coming and I hate Holidays, that's why. I hope it will pass...so have a nice stay in Poland and remember about me.

My Dear Joan of NC,
Writing to you from the airport. Indeed, I had a good and fruitful trip. I hope that this is only a begining of very succesful business. ;-

I spent a have of our time with my colleagues in a pub, drinking beer, joking and talking about chances of our future business venture.

I will be back in January to meet my colleague who is now the most powerful guy in energy sector in Poland :-)

Please be patient and trust me. I told you to wait for a good price. 200 shares cannot change a trend. We will meet in Florence or .. soon :-). Do not leave NC, do leave me !!!

Your Niccolo

Hello My Dear,
I was worried about you because of the weather over the sea and I hope you had a good flight back home. I will not leave NC and I will not leave you, I just had a bad day on Friday.
I trust you, I trust you from the first moment, otherwise I wouldn't be writing to you right now.
Tell me, why do you want to meet me? You are a very intelligent and also powerful person, the guys from the BDG forum don't believe in what you say about your plans about making good money on your business, but don't worry, one day you will make good money on your projects and I wish you all the best because I believe in science and in the power of human's brain, but ...... I'm just a simple person and I don't have anything in common with high technologies. Sometimes I only work among electric cabinets and encoders, he, he, he ....:)

On the other hand I would like to tell you so many things... We have so much in common, you even can't imagine how much. You've seen many places that are very close to my heart. Have you been to Mackinac Island ? In that hotel there is a special room dedicated to Elise Mc Kenna (and her portrait) from a movie "Somewhere in Time", probably unknown in Poland.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QcoOz7s8vew&feature=related

If we meet once I know we will want to meet again... Do you really want it?

My Dear Joan of NC,
You should not worry about me. I was flying so many times and I can go to sleep before a plane takes off :-) I am sorry, I was very busy working days and nights so I could not answer your question. Please read below two quotes from Gra w klasy by Julio Cortazar. This is my answer to your question.

[...] przypadkowe spotkanie jest czymś najmniej przypadkowym w naszym życiu [...].
[...] We went around without looking for each other, but knowing we went around to find each other [...]

I do believe that we will meet somewhere in time, but we do not have to plan this.

Indeed, I visited Mackinac Island many years ago. You see. We could already meet. We should keep trying. :-)

It seems that our baby does not want to grow so we have to be patient. How patient are you ?

I will buy and watch 'Somewhere in Time" over Christmas. THANKS !!!

Your Niccolo

Good evening My Dear,
I think that life is too short to wait for things to happen. Believe me, I know what I'm saying. You know what kind of people I really hate? People that say: "I should have called /said/done something." That's why I told you to read Zusak's "The Book Thief".
The story is happening during the war and there is a girl and a boy, they are 12-14 years old and one day during air raid he gets killed...She found him and crying she said that he was her best friend but she never told him how important he was to her and he died without knowing it. It's really a heartbreaking scene. I read that book in two nights. You should find it in English. It taught me a lot.
So..... I decided that we should meet next year. Do you agree?
Then, when our baby is at least 15, we will go to Florence or to Provence. OK?
Answering your question, I'm not patient at all :-)

For now our baby is.....dying! Tell me, who's selling it so cheap if it's going to cost at least 13 next year, according to the President J.? I bought some today, but I think it's going to be cheaper.

What do you think about Fiten? They are not doing very well... Yesterday I watched the transmission live and the President said Clean Energy Market is very promissing; they are going to build a plant for production of biomass, just like WDK. I hope we will get this construction permit for another plant, so it could be build in two years. I still have to read more about selling energy.
Don't work so hard, please. I'm sending you something relaxing; I play with this cat almost every day, he,he,he:
http://www.members.shaw.ca/gf3/circle-the-cat.html

Good night My Dear.

Good morning My Dear Joan of NC,

I have been working all night on a proposal for my President. I am meeting him in a few hours. You made a very important decision which I have to discuss with you. Nasim Taleb said that we cannot predict the future, but we have to think about the consequences of events - Black Swans, positive or negative. Do you agree with me that we should talk about consequences of our meeting now ?

Please read below:

Śpieszmy się kochać ludzi tak szybko odchodzą
zostaną po nich buty i telefon głuchy
tylko to co nieważne jak krowa się wlecze
najważniejsze tak prędkie że nagle się staje
potem cisza normalna więc całkiem nieznośna
jak czystość urodzona najprościej z rozpaczy
kiedy myślimy o kimś zostając bez niego.
Ks Jan Twardowski

Have a good day My Black Swan,

PS. Our baby jumped more 20%. FLORENCE ? :-)

My Dear Niccolo, I hope you had a great day at work and now you're finally sleeping...
I think it's too late for us to talk about consequences because we've already met and I cannot pretend not to know you. I know that we will be always looking for each other on this forum...It has already happened and you can't take it back and neither can I.

At the begining you were probably thinking that I was stupid and I have to admit that I was angry with you, but the truth is different. I could ask you again why you started to chase after me on MWT without making investments in their shares and could ask myself why I started responding you, but I don't know the answer... We will never know it.
At this point I want to apologize to you for all the bad things I said about you at the beginning, please, forgive me. You were right about me and MWT and the first thing you taught me was to think first and then to write.

You know, I participate in many conferences and I go to many places, but I don't want to look around hoping to see you one day in the crowd. Please, save me this uncertainty and don't tell me that we will meet somewhere in time....
I'd be very happy to know you personally and when our baby is 15 I'd like to go with you to Florence to show you part of my world.
I'd like to write you many things, but it's already midnight and tomorrow I have to wake up early, so that's all for today.
Good night My Dear and sleep well.

My Dear Black Swan, My Joan of NC,
It seems that we are writing another 'Samotnosc w Sieci'. Indeed, our meeting at this forum was like the Black Swan. A positive one for us, but may be negative for our families in the future.
Shall we cross the Rubikon ? Shall we exist only in the Second life, but not real one. Which is real one? Inception ? Shall we see each other, touch each other, .... to exchange our thoughts? You have already shown me your inside world. It is beautiful !!!!

I do believe that you deserved better life with a better, free and younger man who will be always with you. Let's talk about consequences for you if we meet in real life and after the first meeting I will not disappoint you. Do you really want to wait for the almost 50 year old man at the airports, cities, cafes, hotels?

Do you really want this ?

Another poem for you:

*****************************
rozstanie jest ptakiem
który rozpostarł pióra
ode mnie do ciebie

wszystkie pióra są ciemne
wszystkie dni
bez ciebie

noce drżą
rozsypane pióra
po niebie

kiedy przyjdziesz
złote pióra zbiegną się w słońce
umrze ptak

Halina Poświatowska

Have a good day my Black Swan,

PS. I will start my Christmas break tomorrow (rather today), but have to prepare our Christmas Eve: cooking (carp jelly, 2 soups, dumplings and more), do shopping including a Christmas tree, cleaning a house. :-) Really, I enjoy this !!!

Good evening My Dear Niccolo,
please, tell me: are you happy in your life? In your marriage? You've already married me on this forum...without knowing me....Can you talk with your wife about all the things you talk with me: politics, stock market, literature, poetry, films, love? In all your messages I can feel or anger or love, there's nothing in between. Are you that lonely in your marriage? That's why you started writing to me: you love my passion and my devotion for these companies. Someone has already told me that I talk about my companies with such love that he never gets from his wife.
You're a wonderful, sensitive man, educated, intelligent, you deserve to be happy.You're not even 50 years old, you still have maybe 35 - 40 years to live, so please don't tell me that you want to live a double life with me. The only thing I want from you is to be honest with me and with your family. You have to make your decisions about your future.
I'm not ready to meet you in hotels for the rest of my life, you're right: I don't deserve it. One day I'd ask you for more. Can you ever give it to me? In how many years? You cannot change a sensitive woman into a bitchy one, I'm sorry.
I've decided to leave NC; today I talked with my colleague from the translation office and I begged her to find me a contract for a job as an interpreter on an italian oil rig, somewhere on the sea, far away from stock market and from bankier.pl.; I hope she'll find something for me in spring and my broker will sell my stock. In my opinion it's the best solution for us.

I wish you Merry Christmas.
Good night My Niccolo.

My Dear Black Swan, My Dear Joan of NC, My Dear Lioness, My Dear Angel,

YES. I do have fallen in love with your beautiful mind and soul and your passion. You are my positive Black Swan. I would love to continue exchange our thoughts and feelings. But you are right. Why are you so wise? Why do you think about consequences of our steps?

I love my beautiful and wise wife and my sons, I do, but because of my investments in stock markets and my 'second' life on this forum I have started loosing contact with them and spending most of my free time analysing shares and looking for information. This is my 'second' life, but this is not sustainable. Money is not worth missing time with my family. I have decided to leave this forum and do not take my investments so seriously. I need money to educate my sons at the best universities, but I can find another solution, e.g. my company in the future. I have to cross the Rubicon and join the dark side of the business force :-).

PLEASE, I BEG YOU. I am sorry. I did not want to hurt you or be dishonest. Do not change your life, do not leave this forum, because of me. I am not worth doing this !!!! You do love Krakow and your friends, including those from this forum and they love you. Could you exchange them for the oil rig? Could you punish them because of me?

An the most important. You are not alone: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pAyKJAtDNCw. You are so beautiful mind and soul. You have your friends, books, movies, work, students, hobbies, passions ... You are amazing.

If I could only meet you earlier somewhere in time or live in different culture, but ....
Please follow your Legend and 'and when you want something, all the universe conspire in helping you to achieve it' and 'when you want something with all your heart, that is when you are closest to the Soul of the World. It is always a positive force'. (The Alchemist)

I will be conspiring in helping you to achieve your happiness !!! I will be thinking about and praying for you.

My last poem by Halina Poświatowska for you:

chcę pisać o tobie
twoim imieniem wesprzeć skrzywiony płot
zmarzłą czereśnię
w twoich ustach
składać strofy wygięte
o twoich rzęsach kłamać że czarne
chcę
wplątać palce w twoje włosy
znaleźć wgłębienie na szyi
gdzie stłumionym szeptem
serce zaprzecza ustom
chcę
twoje imię z gwiazdami zmieszać
z krwią
być w tobie
nie być z tobą
zniknąć
jak kropla deszczu którą wchłonęła noc

I' would like to wish a Happy Christmas and all the best for 2012. I do hope that you will find your Legend and follow it. YOU DESERVED IT !!!

Good bye my my beloved Black Swan, Joan of NC, Lioness, Angel, Krecia (Karolina)

Your forever Niccolo

My Dear Niccolo,
I should be preparing for church but God will forgive me that this year I can't think about Christmas. I've been thinking about you and I've been crying all day.
Yes, I can and I will exchange everyone for an oil rig or something else, because I can't be on this forum anymore, it will always remind me of you. You cannot cancel all these messages and even if you did. I've already printed some of them and I have them in front of me.
Please, you have to read this and you have to answer me, please.
I think that we have something special, we've talked a lot and we know each other very well. If you were a bastard I'd never talk to you, but know you're a good person, great patriot, wise man and I simply trust you. I know that you've never lied to me on this forum and I respect you a lot for this. I have a feeling that I lost someone special today and I can't stand it.
First of all I want you to tell you that you wouldn't be happy with me. You have a great family and I don't like children, I must have my space and a lot of freedom to be happy. You need to be loved, kissed goodnight and caressed. My freedom would simply hurt you. I'm very independent. But I can and I'd love to offer you my friendship. It's a very precious thing. I'm not looking for any sex affairs and I will never tempt you, I just want to know wise people to surround me and I found you. I always pray to God for good people to meet and I know He sent us this possibility to build a long lasting friendship. What we love in each other are our brains and our sensibility, not us, and we shouldn't loose it. I have many male friends, I even went to a school of tango with husband of my italian friend, we talk every day on skype and nothing's happening between us. I'd love to make you one of them, but please stop idealizing me. I'm not Poświatowska and I'm not Cielecka from "Samotność..." Please, stop creating something unreal, because you're hurting yourself.
I wanted to meet you in person to tell you all this. I really think that we would be good friends, we could talk about books, stock market and other nice and fruitful things.You understand me very well. Remember that: "Tylko ludzie o wielkich zaletach serca mają przyjaciół." I wrote all this because I've learned to tell right now what we have to say, you know that.
If your answer is negative, I'll never write on any forum again. I'm sorry.
Good night My Dear Niccolo.

My Dear Black Swan, My Dear Joan of NC, My Dear Angel,

Indeed, I am a BASTARD who makes Angels cry during Christmas time. God will not forgive me this. I should have been thinking earlier about consequences of sending you these letters. I am not special. You are idealising me now. Actually, I am two dimensional as you have already noticed. I love or hate. This is the main reason why I cannot accept your special gift, your friendship, because sooner or later, I will not only love your beautiful soul and mind, but will also desire you and will not stop thinking about you. Please believe me. I know myself. Usually, men are not good at multitasking like women, especially me. It will destroy my marriage and happiness of my family. Every night my younger son tells me, 'father I love you'. I cannot lose this. I am too selfish. My family is the meaning of my life. On the other hand I am so grateful that somebody like you, somebody special like you, has offered me friendship. I do not have so many friends due to our emigration. I do have only ONE friend in Poland, but his a man who helped me a lot in my life. I admire him. This is the Catch-22, but I have to be honest with my wife and you. She will not understand that I have a woman friend. Her father left her mother and her when she was only 2 year old. You would not believe, but she had a dream that I was cheating her !!!

I will hate myself to the end of my life for what I did to you. Please forgive me. I will conspire and pray all my life in helping you to find your Legend, your happiness, your real husband, your real lover, your real freedom. I do believe that we are all connected in the Universe. You can call it scientifically entropy. I can hear your breath even now.

Please I BEG you. Cherish your fiends, stay true to your principles, live passionately and fully and well. Experience new things and places. Love and be loved.

'Zaprawde, nigdy kochanek nie szuka
nie bedac szukanym przez swa ukochana' Rumi.

I am NOT leaving you. You will find my thoughts and feelings in poems by Herbert, Poswiatowska, Koziol, Cummings, Twardowski, Levertov, Eliot, Jesienin, ....., books, movies, paintings, places, maybe faces of other people. Please read two poems today by Herbert:

Dojrzalosc
.....
bezradni jak dzieci
i doswiadczeni jak starcy
jestesmy po prostu wolni
to zanaczy gotowi odejsc
.....
and Epizod.
......
- nie placz
- badz dzielna
- popatrz wszyscy ludzie

wydymasz wargi i mowisz
- powinienes byc kaznodzieja

i zagniewana odchodzisz
nie kocha sie moralistow.
............

You will be always my Black Swan, my Angel, my Joan on NC, my Lioness, my FRIEND.

Your forever Niccolo

PS. I will travel to Florence and find you with your true love. I will be smiling passing you both. I know it !!!

My Dear Niccolo,
yes, in some questions you are right, but you're wrong about calling me an Angel. Yesterday I went to Church, but I wasn't praying, I was just standing there thinking of you and after 20 minutes I left. I left God because you have taken my soul. You have my soul and I don't love anything else, not this company, not my students, I will never go to Florence without you, I'll never see the tomb of Machiavelli, I cannot and I don't want to see alI of it anymore.I don't know why, but I feel that we are the same. I'm two dimentional too: I love or hate - as you can see. We're two bastards, My Dear and we love being bastards. Literature only tries to make us better that's why we love it.
You're right: I know that you're close to me and you touch me every night, I know when you're sitting on a computer because I wake up and I look at the hour. And I know that you touch me and desire me, because.....I feel you. You can guess the rest. And I know that we'll be sitting like that and thinking about each other until....We're both not honest; even making love to someone else I would be thinking of you and you have the same feeling, I know it because I can feel your touch during all nights.
You know that I started writing a book, a dictionary, I already have almost 60 pages of it and I've already been talking with sponsors ( I will not mention where because you HATE his name, he, he, he..) and I'll dedicate it to you: to the only beloved man in this world who took my soul. That's how our real names will stay together forever in the history of literature and you cannot change this decision, don't even ask me. You took away my passion for WDK and for all the ecology in the world, but tomorrow I'm going to the Jagellonian University to continue my work on this book that's my last passion, my "child" that will live many centuries longer than me and now this is going to be "our" second child, the eternal one. We will be like Tristan and Izolda - I love this book most.
Your Angel forever

My Dear Positive Black Swan, My Angel

You are making a huge mistake. I cannot recognize you !!! Where is my independent Angel, my Joan of NC? Where is your freedom? Your soul belongs to you and God not to me !!! Please, I beg you, be yourself !!! You wrote:

‘First of all I want you to tell you that you wouldn't be happy with me. You have a great family and I don't like children, I must have my space and a lot of freedom to be happy. You need to be loved, kissed goodnight and caressed. My freedom would simply hurt you. I'm very independent. But I can and I'd love to offer you my friendship. It's a very precious thing. I'm not looking for any sex affairs and I will never tempt you, ….’

You have promised not to tempt me. My family is the meaning of my life. Neither you nor I are going to take away my meaning of life, are we? I DON’T WANT TO CHANGE YOU. I WANT YOU TO BE MY POSSITIVE BLACK SWAN FOREVER. You wrote:

‘The only thing I want from you is to be honest with me and with your family. You have to make your decisions about your future. I'm not ready to meet you in hotels for the rest of my life, you're right: I don't deserve it. One day I'd ask you for more. Can you ever give it to me? In how many years? You cannot change a sensitive woman into a bitchy one, I'm sorry.’

Neither you nor I are going to play The Last Tango in Paris or The Fatal Attraction. We are not going to destroy ourselves, are we? We do not play a wicked game, do we?

‘The world was on fire and no one could save me but you
It's strange what desire will make foolish people do
I'd never dreamed that I'd meet somebody like you
I'd never dreamed that I'd lose somebody like you

No I don't want to fall in love (this girl is only gonna break your heart)
No I don't want to fall in love (this girl is only gonna break your heart)
With you
With you (this girl is only gonna break your heart)

What a wicked game you played to make me feel this way
What a wicked thing to do to let me dream of you
What a wicked thing to say you never felt this way
What a wicked thing to do to make me dream of you’

Chris Isaak's song Wicked Game by Rebecca Ferguson
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D66prcheraA

I wish I could teach you how to be loved, but I cannot !!! Please forgive me !!!

‘I got caught up in a daze
Of the wine and roses
Such a sweet escape
But I watched it all slip away
Like running water from my hands
Raining on this picture land

The fallen empires,
The shattered glass
The wicked echos of my past.
I've seen it all before, that's why I'm asking.

Will you still be here tomorrow
Or will you leave in the dead of the night?
So your waves don't crash around me,
I'm staying one step ahead of the tide.
Will you leave me lost in my shadows
Or will you pull me into your light?
Teach me how to be loved
Teach me how to be loved

My Dear Black Swan, My Angel I'd never dreamed that 'I'd meet somebody like you and
I'd never dreamed that I'd lose somebody like you'. I am so grateful for your thoughts and feelings, but I will not be here tomorrow. I am leaving in 'the dead of the night' to save our souls to put you into YOUR real light !!!!
I do know that you will find your true Legend, your true love. You deserved it, because you have so beautiful mind and soul.

Your Niccolo forever.

PS. If you see me, the old, grey hair man, somewhere in time walking with a copy of ‘The Book Thief’ my hands call me Niccolo.

Hello My Dear Machia,
I'm fine and I'm not taking you anywhere this night, I promise. Before 2 a.m. I was dreaming that someone was calling me and I woke up. Don't worry; I like thinking in the night because it's quiet I can gather all my thoughts. I'm just like Leopardi, my favourite writer:
http://pl.respectance.com/Maria_Wanda_Jerzyk/memorial/show/9ahe6orm0811d0/
I hope you're sleeping right now and nothing is disturbing you.

I just wanted to say that you can blame yourself for all those letters and, please, do not anymore. On the contrary, you opened my eyes on many things and I'm grateful for your friendship which is very important to me. During Christmas I just realized how many mistakes I made in the last year and also in my life, but it's not time to discuss it now.
I want to tell you that I've never met someone like you, someone that opened his heart to an unknown person from a forum, trusted her to this extent, who is so patient and who always finds time to read her stupid thughts and find an answer... ;-) I can say that i love you for all these features you have and you cannot take this away from me, you just can't and it doesnt' anything to do at this moment with desiere or sex, and you know that. I'll have the same feeling when you're 80-90 years old; it will never change. My Legend doesnt' have anything to do with because you are part of it , and I'm looking at you right now.

I have to tell this thing and it's not about me, but about you. In these two days I read and analysed your letters. You seem so vulnerable and abandoned.... Why do I have this impression, Machiavelli?! In all these songs, films, poems, books...it's you. You're just the same as Jakub from "Samotność...." Please, I beg you, save yourself, I beg you. I just want to tell you that you cannot satisfy and make happy everyone... You know, my father died at the age of 43 because he wanted to save the world, he worked all day at work and then at home. He was talking just like you: I want to educate my children, I want my family to be happy and other silly things. And you know? He died one day when I was 5 years old, my mother lived better after he died than with him, we are educated and wise (not always, as you see, he,he,he). Please, one thing is being responsable and another thing is personal happiness; I see that something is wrong with your life, it's in all those your letters.

Fortunately or unfortunately, you found me but you're lucky, because I understand you. ;-)
You asked me once, why I'm so wise... i'm not wise. I just know life. Once I wrote that I hate women, yes, I hate women, I hate them because my mother didn't know or want to save my fahter. I;m not wise, but I'm very empathetic. It's not your fault that I feel you around me, yes I felt you all day yesterday, until I saw you on MWT. It's always nice to see you on the forum, here or on BDG. You like investing, reading about it, knowing different things, so please do not resign from it, (Niki will be missing you!!), don't resign from your passions!
I'll be here too but in January I want to open a new branch of an insurance claim law firm (I'm interested in law and I know this business) in K. and for Italy and maybe also I'll give some ads on English forums. I have to tell them my vision, so I'll be working on it and then go to B.-B.
I really hope to see you (on the forum), get some nice article from you to read and remember that my invitation to K. for a nice cup of coffee is and will be always valid.
Your Angel Krecia.

My Dear Angel, My Dear Black Swan,

Did you call my name, the name of old, grey hair man, tonight? Do you guard my dreams? I heard the rustle of your wings tonight. I wish I could see your beautiful wings:

moim sąsiadem jest anioł
on strzeże ludzkich snów
dlatego wraca późno do domu
na schodach słyszę dyskretne kroki
i szelest
zwijanych skrzydeł
on rano staje w moich drzwiach
otwartych na oścież
i mówi:
twoje okno znowu
świeciło długo
w noc
Halina Poświatowska

I could not sleep and realized that I cannot leave you in “the dead of the night” without sending you my best wishes for 2012. I told you that entropy links people. You know you are right telling me that somehow we influence legends of other people through our lives. I am honoured to be a tiny part of your Legend. Many people told me that I was their Black Swan and helped them to make their life’s decision. But please remember, you HAVE to find your true love. I will conspire to help you to find it. I could not live in pace if you are alone for the rest of your life and the truth is that I can’t leave with or without you !!!. I cannot teach you how to be loved.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XmSdTa9kaiQ

Please accept my best wishes for 2012.

The Blessing of Peace, The Beauty of Hope, The Spirit of Love, The Comfort of Faith,
May these be your gifts in 2011.

You are so amazing and talented Angel. I think that other angels are very jealous of you ;-). I do believe that all your dreams will come true !!!

PS. I would like to give you a gift, a new album of Rebecca Ferguson with her beautiful songs: “nothing’s real but love” and “teach me how to be loved”. I would do when we meet somewhere in time or in K or F.

Good evening My Niccolo, My White Pure Angel,
welcome in the New Year. I hope you're fine and you had a good time yesterday waiting for the New Year to come. I also wish you all the best: a lot of health, peace of heart and good investments, of course!! ;-)
Yes, I protect you as much as I can day and night, My Dear "Old" Niccolo, he, he, he.....In June I translated some of your texts and they've been already published; I read them last week in the Bibl. Jag. Our names are connected forever. ;-)
From your last letter I see that you worry about me..... Right now I should call you my White Pure Angel and I will be calling you like that since now. You're very sweet, but please, do not worry about me!! I know that you wish me all the best, but I cannot find love, it has to find me. It's destiny, My Dear. I like my life; my last relationship just ended and for now I want to be free. My Dear Niccolo, why do you, men, don't like independent women that want to learn and develop themselves? I always have this problem. He couldn't accept my interest for the markets and some other things connected with my business plans. I do not want to pretend to have a happy life on the level of consciousness: a nice house, a child, a dog, a car and.....no common interests + emotional emptiness.
So where are you sending me to find this love, My Dear?
I like the music of R.F. She's got my eyes! When are you going to give me her CD....?
In K.?
Have you watched "Somewhere in Time" during Christmas time? And?
Sweet dreams My Pure White Angel.
P.S. Yesterday at midnight I was thinking about you!!!

My Dear Angel, My Black Swan, My Joan of NC,
I am so sorry that you still haven't found what you are looking for. I have already told you that you have to be exposed to positive black swans. Erich From said: Dzieki miłosci człowiek przezwycięza uczucie izolacji i osamotnienia, pozostając przy tym sobą.
Do you agree with him? I do hope that you are not going to throw in the towel and you will be trying to find your Legend, your true love, your Sky (read below).

Zaprawdę, nigdy kochanek nie szuka,
nie będąc szukanym przez swą ukochaną.
Kiedy błyskawica miłości uderzy w to serce,
wiedz, że miłość jest także w tamtym sercu.
Kiedy miłość Boga wzrasta w twoim sercu,
to bez wątpienia Bóg pokochał ciebie.
Dźwięku klaskania nie wyda jedna ręka bez drugiej ręki.
Boska Mądrość jest przeznaczeniem i jej zrządzenie
każe nam kochać się wzajemnie.
Jest przeznaczeniem każdej części świata tworzyć parę
ze swą towarzyszką.
W oczach mędrców Niebo jest mężczyzną, a Ziemia kobietą;
Ziemia chroni to, co spada z Nieba.
Gdy Ziemi brak ciepła, to Niebo je zsyła; gdy utraciła
swą świeżość i wilgoć, Niebo je przywraca.
Niebo krząta się pilnie jak małżonek
dla dobra swej małżonki;
A Ziemia krząta się koło domu: dogląda porodów
i niemowląt, które rodzi.
Uważaj Ziemię i Niebo za obdarzone mądrością,
bowiem spełniają pracę mądrych istot.
Jeśli ta para nie czerpie rozkoszy od siebie nawzajem,
to czemu szuka siebie jak para kochanków?
Jak-bez Ziemi-ma kwitnąć kwiat i drzewo?
Cóż wtedy dałaby woda i ciepło Niebu?
Jak Bóg włożył pragnienie w serce mężczyzny i kobiety po to,
by zachować świat przez ich związek,
Tak też zaszczepił każdej części istnienia
pragnienie innej części.
Dzień i Noc są pozornie wrogami, jednakże oboje
służą jednemu celowi:
Kochają się wzajemnie, aby doskonalić swe wspólne dzieło.
Gdyby Noc nie obdarzała Człowieka bogactwem,
wówczas Dzień nie miałby nic do rozdania.
by Rumi

I was guarding your dreams and working on my proposal until 3AM tonight. Please believe me, you still dream about your true love.

My congratulations on your new book !!! I am proud of you. You have left me another clue ;-). By the way, probably, you have already read Machiavelli in Love: Sex, Self, and Society in the Italian Renaissance by Ruggiero, Guido so you have to know that Niccolo was an experienced and passionate lover although loved his wife, Marietta. This is his sonnet written to Francesco Vettori in January 1515:

Many times the young Archer
had already tried to wound my breast
with his arrows, because he takes pleasure
in showing contempt for and inflicting injury on others;
and although those arrows were sharp and fierce,
so much so that a diamond couldn’t have withstood the blow,
nonetheless they found such a resistant target
that he had little regard for all their power.
So he, full of indignation and fury,
In order to give proof of his exalted excellence,
Changed quiver, changed arrow and bow;
and he fired one with such violence
that I still grieve over my wounds,
and I confess and acknowledge his power.

Please do not be a resistant target !!!

I am too tired to answer all your questions tonight. Please believe me that guarding your dreams is not an easy task ;-). I have to re-think what I and you have promised in our previous letters. I cannot and have to write to you !!!

Sleep well my Angel and Archer :-)

Your Niccolo

PS. There are good news for your baby :-)
http://www.biogazownierolnicze.pl/biogazownierolnicze,article,0,77,142,towarowa-gielda-energii-rozpoczyna-handel-biomasa.html

Good evening My Niccolo, My Pure White Angel!!!
Yes, my baby is doing fine, although this afternoon for a moment I had impression that it was drowning. You should think about having this baby with me, I'm serious.
Thanks a lot for the poem!!! I adore it!!! I even want to learn it by heart and one day I'll do it.
Yes, you're right that I dream about love, but I cannot hurry anything. Fromm is right, but only 3% of people find real love. One of my best friends likes to discuss with me, and he always says" Everyone is married, but true love is a totally different thing." and I agree with him. For now I want to stay free because I don't want to hear jealousy of every my step. Do you think that a person who loves should forbid me to learn, to go to WDK to see miskanthus, to go to Warsaw to see the interior of the GPW building, to work for the factories I want and he doesnt' know anything about? If your answer is positive, I'll marry him, because maybe I'm wrong and he's right to keep me home and make me stupid.
Should I?
My Niccolo, I was shocked!! You know Vettori!!! You should read the letters of Machiavelli. One day I'll tell you the story of their donkey, it shows his character. I love that guy, his passion and his devotion for what he loved and his real love was F. I think that today we need such people, even I think of joining one of the parties.

My Niccolo.... I have an impression that you expect from me some answer....
Yesterday I went to church and there was an Adoration. The only thing I asked God was to reveal to me the mistery of our friendship and it's goal. You have to know that for me God, Church and priests are three different things. I thanked Him for knowing you because thanks to you I became better and wiser. If you think that on the judgment day He will punish you for all your patience for me, your care and all your time that you give me, I'll take your hand and take you away because I will not want to be in such Paradise.
I think you should be a role model for many prople that see and care only about themselves. You know, you worry about me more than my family!
You cannot expect from me that I will not like you or that I will turn my back on you, because God would really punish me for that. God is Love and I had a feeling that He's looking on us and smiling... Why? I don't know yet.
I'd like to write you many more things, but I have to go to sleep. Tomorrow I have many lessons and in the evening I have some guests for dinner. I love cooking!!! Remember how we met? "A ty nie przy garach?" He, he, he ;-) I don't know why, but I've always liked you, even then, when you hated me so much... ;-) Life is very impredictible....
My Dear White Angel, don't work too hard, sleep well and have sweet dreams!!!
Your Positive Black Swan

My Dear Angel, My Black Swan, My Joan of NC, My Archer

Just to clarify. I do not know Vettori, but you have forgotten that I am a research so I have started researching Machiavelli to find out more about your fascination and passion.
Especially, I am interested in his private life and his lovers ;-) By the way I do not like his political credo: “The end justifies the means.” and think that is totally wrong. Do you agree with me ?

I have to go, but I will be working all night to be ready for another meeting with my President and will try multitasking like other women ;-): working, guarding your dreams, writing to you about Emma and definitions of love and watching 'Somewhere in time' (finally I go it) !!!

I hope you had a good day with your students my Archer

Your Niccolo,

My Dear Angel,

First of all, tell me what did you cook last evening for your friends ? Let me guess, An Italian meal ? A classic Italian soup – minestrone ? By the way I started cooking one year ago and love it. This Christmas, I got from Santa - Easy Meals -, another cookery book by Rachel Allen, my favourite cook. I love her recipes and her  I have to buy you one of her books. Another gift?

I cannot imagine that true love would like to make you stupid. Love means to give not to take. On the other hand you would like your true love to share all your passions and hobbies. I would rather expect some complementary passions and skills. Do you think that it could broaden your relationship? You cannot talk about markets and shares whole days !!!
You remind me of Emma Morley, a main character from a book - One Day. She was a teacher too  who was looking for her true love or rather who could not admit that her Black Swan was her best friend, Dexter. He did the same mistake. You have to read this very sad book and maybe learn a lesson. By the way I have to confess that my first love was not my last one. If you cannot find this book in K I will give it to you. Another gift?

And I do not believe that you can agree with the below quote by Ambrose Bierce ;-)
Love: A temporary insanity curable by marriage or by removal of the patient from the influences under which he incurred the disorder.

Seriously,
Śpieszmy się kochać ludzi, tak szybko odchodzą
i ci co nie odchodzą nie zawsze powrócą.
I nigdy nie wiadomo mówiąc o miłości, czy pierwsza jest ostatnią, czy ostatnia pierwszą.

Let’s come back to research and science.
WHY WE LOVE: The Nature and Chemistry of Romantic Love
What ’tis to love? Shakespeare asked. People probably pondered this as they lay around their campfires and watched the stars a million years ago. Anthropologist Helen Fisher and her colleagues have put 49 men and women into a brain scanner to understand this ecstasy: 17 who had just fallen in love; 15 who had just been rejected; and 17 who are still in love after 21 years of marriage. In WHY WE LOVE, Fisher follows romantic love among peoples around the world (the oldest love poem comes from ancient Sumeria over 4,000 years ago.) She discusses what happens in your brain when you fall in love, saying one area also “lights up” when you feel the rush of cocaine. She traces types of love, the feelings of love, the evolution of love, love among other creatures—from wolves to ducks and chimps, and the future of this beguiling feeling. "Romantic love," she says, "is a powerful and primordial mating drive that evolved to find and keep life’s most precious gift—an appropriate mating partner." Dr Fisher divides love into three categories involving different brain systems: 1) Lust (the craving for sexual gratification), driven by androgens and estrogens; 2) Attraction (or romantic or passionate love, characterized by euphoria when things are going well, terrible mood swings when they’re not, focused attention, obsessive thinking, and intense craving for the individual), driven by high dopamine and norepinephrine levels and low serotonin; and 3) Attachment (the sense of calm, peace, and stability one feels with a long-term partner) driven by the hormones oxytocin and vasopressin.
http://www.helenfisher.com/books.html
http://www.mcmanweb.com/love_lust.html
What is your definition of true love ? Lust, Attraction or Attachment ? Do you agree with Dr Fisher who says that even romantic love is a mating drive ? You are free so you can choose your love now.

My Angel, you try to reveal a mystery of our meeting and friendship. This is a very simple. I love helping people. I have introduced in my work very simple philosophy. It is called: servant-leadership: first to serve, then to lead. I put needs of my colleagues before mine. People call me asking for advices. If I could earn a lot of money first of all I would go to F., then educate my sons, and set up a charity organization and work in Africa. By the way I am a successful matchmaker for two my colleagues. I wish I could be your one .

Coming back to Niccolo, it seems we have at least one thing in common: lovers !!. I have to confess that I am not faithful to you. Currently, my lovers are: Rachael Allen for her cookery books, Rebecca Ferguson for her voice and songs, especially – Teach me to be loved (I will go to her concert just before my birthday in March – God I am so old !!!), Sharon Stone for her IQ, legs and one of the best erotic scenes in cinema history. Moreover I have seven children now and only one with you. I have given up Warren’s strategy. I need money ASAP to go to F. !!!
I am glad that you like pomes. I used to know all them by heart many years ago and thanks to you I can read and share them again. I have my special notebook with all my favourite pomes.
I have to come back to my work. The President is waiting. By the way you had so beautiful dreams tonight. I love guarding your dreams my Angel 

Your Niccolo

Good evening My Pure White Angel, My Niccolo!!
please, forgive me, but today I will not answer all your questions, especially those about love and Machia..... I'm very tired. I just wanted to be with you for a moment. You know what I would do right now...? I'd like to sit beside you and look at you while you're working. I love such moments. Just to be with someone in silence. When I wake up at night I always think that you are somewhere out there working and guarding my dreams.
My day was very busy. I spent it in 5 different libraries, including Bibl. Jag. (I love being there in silence and among all those old and fasciating books)) and talking to people. I finally found those books I wanted to continue writing my dictionary. On Friday we have a holiday and I want to dedicate the whole weekend to writing in peace.
Then I went to the Exhibition of Turner's Painting in the Muzeum Narodowe. It's till January 8-th, so if I wanted to see it, I had to go there today. Being there I was thinking about you; I'd like to take you to some museum one day. You know, I advise you to see the Titanic Exhibition. I saw it 6 years ago in Vegas but they travel all over the world with it, and I know they were in London last year or two years ago. It's really unforgetable to touch real Titanic! I see you like concerts; like my brother. I prefer museums or exhibitions, but those extraordinary that will stay in my memory forever.
My Dear, if you go to Africa, take me with you, please, please... It's one of my dreams to set up a charity organisation!! Two years ago I wanted to go to San Giovanni Rotondo to volunteer in the Casa Sollievo della Sofferenza, I alread called there but then I got money to start my business and I had to put aside that dream. At this point I have to recommend you a very special book of Gino Strada that I read few years ago, called "Papagalli Verdi" ("Green Parrots"). It was written by a war surgeon and it's about antipersonnel mines used in Pakistan, Iran, Ruanda, Angola and Etiopia. He spent years helping people wounded by those mines, they wound expecially children because they look like little green toys. It's a very touching collection of his war experiences. That book is a great testimony of insanity of wars. It's very hard to read, but it's worth to know it. Have you seen "Beyond Borders" with A. Jolie? You would love this movie; I fell in love with it at first moment.
Yesterday I spent a very nice evening with my friends; we were sitting and talking until midnight. I have to disappoint you!! I didn't prepare anything special: pulpety + ziemniaczki+ warzywka. Very traditional meal, but they were delicious. I love shrimps, but they don't, unfortunately :-( and I didn;t have time to prepare real italian lasagne. Next time. I love preparing meals for my friends and then talk with them long at night. I like it more than going out and sitting in a restaurant.
Yes, like you I like poems and I also have a notebook with my favourite poems. I also collected diary notes and i still have them. I love Percy Shelley and Thomas Hardy:

Ptak zanosi się tą samą piosnką,
Bez najmniejszych odstępstw czy pomyłek,
której kiedyś słuchaliśmy wiosną,
Lat temu tyle...

Co za dziw: ptasia ekstaza
Tak przez lata na pamięć wykuta,
że trwa, do dziś się powtarza
W niezmiennych nutach!

Ale ptak nie jest ten sam.
Prawda: tamten to dziś proch i ciemność...
Jak i Ci, co wtedy ptasich gam
Słuchali ze mną.
T. Hardy

Please, forgive me, but I'll answer the rest of your questions tomorrow. I'm falling asleep in front of the computer. Sleep well and have sweet dreams My Dear White Pure Angel.
Your Archer

Good morning My Angle, My Archer, My Busy Bee,
Please, you do not have to answer my questions immediately or even at all. I do not expect you to do that. A good friend will not demand. I told you that my best friend is in Poland and we do not talk or write to much. He is extremely busy, but I know that he will give me his hand and advice when I need this. It seems that I have to call him soon !!!

My Archer I admire you. You are as busy as a bee, but you might not have time to use your arrows. How someone can teach you how to be loved if you do not have time !!! I should call you Bee :-).

OK. It seems that we have a plan when we will be very rich:
1) Florence
2) Africa
3) ??

Please forgive me, but I could not guard your dreams tonight. I was too tired.

Have a good day my Busy Bee,

Your Niccolo,

PS. I love shrimps !!!

My Dear Angel, My Dear Archer, My Busy Bee
I know that you would like to work over this weekend, but if you find 2 hrs please, please go and watch One Day and tell me what do you think about a movie and a plot ?
http://www.kinopodbaranami.pl/film.php?film_id=6745

You are like Emma !!!! You have to watch a movie about you !!!

Your Niccolo,

PS. Busy day. Working with the President and preparing my trip to Poland again. I am meeting a very influential man in a energy sector in Poland :-)

My Dear Pure Angel, My Niccolo, My Francesco of NC!!!
our baby is dying:
http://newconnect.pl/?page=1045&ph_main_content_start=show&ncc_index=BDG&id=25540&id_tr=1
That's the end of our dream about F. What do you think?!
I have to correct your plan:
1. K. (in May, June or July, please, please, please.......!!!!!)
2. F. (right now it's not so sure)
3. A. (8-10 years?)
4. ?
My Dear, you're too sweet and delicate (like a flower!!) to understand Machiavelli. I should call you rather San Francesco who loved all creatures, than Niccolo!!!
I agree with M.: the end justifies the means. You have to understand the environment that he lived in and why he admired so much Cesare Borgia. Borgia knew how to rule and conquest. Italian politics was not based on defensive wars like it was in Poland.
Traditionally Italy = ancient Rome (Aut Caesar, aut nihili - Caesar or nobody) and that's what M. wanted to make out of Florence: a powerful state. He did not want even think of a different reality. His only love was F. ; everything else was secondary. For him love= weakness and he was right. In politics one should be rather tough and suspicious.

Helen Fisher... What the hell is she talking about?!Does she mean or lust or attraction or attachment?! Lust is one of the factors/"parts" of love, without that "chemistry" sex between a man and a woman wouldn't be possible. Only lust= relieve sexual tension, for some people it could be done with anybody. Any lust needs an attraction if a relationship has to survive, especially for women + attachment as the third and last factor. Right now you have to distinguish what she means by attachment: an empty attachment ( a simple security but also boredom) or true and deep friendship between partners? Of course love cannot exist without lust but lust doesnt' mean love. Lust +attraction + friendship.

Niccolo, how do you prepare shrimps? Could you send me some good recipy?

About that movie.... I cannot promise you to see it on Saturday. I have to talk to my friend first who wants to come and work with me on that dictionary. I'll talk to him tomorrow morning about tomorrow afternoon. I have to see what he says. But thanks anyway! You know more about events in K. than me!!!

I have to go; I have a nice movie on TV in 20 minutes, but I have to take shower first.
Please, do not work too hard.... sleep well; this evening I'll be watching TV and guarding your dreams!!!
Your Archer
P.S. I do not have to answer your questions, but I want to and it's a great pleasure for me.

Good morning My Angel and My Archer,
Indeed, I slept well, but short, only 4 hrs. I do not remember my dreams. Did you delete them ? Were they so bad ? ;-)

I have to work on a proposal now due to a meeting at 9.30AM with my colleague. She is a very good researcher !!! I have to be very well prepared. It seems that we have to come back to Machiavelli, Dr Fisher and our baby. I cannot agree with your answers or rather interpretation or context of M and F work. I will explain later. Please do not worry about our baby, but I feel guilty that you have it with me. Can we wait longer for his growing ? Can we wait longer for our trip to Florence?

I would love to go to K., but I am afraid of your arrows. Seriously !!!

Have a good day my Archer and have your arrows ready.
Zaprawdę, nigdy kochanek nie szuka,
nie będąc szukanym przez swą ukochaną.


Your Niccolo,

PS. Do you know that crab and prawns are quintessential foods for romance and indulgence !! Will send you Rachel's recipe so you will be able to add it to your arrows ;-)
PS. I like concerts, but not rock ones !!! I am too old. I like museums and theater too. :-)

Good evening My Dear Francesco of NC!!!

My Dear, tell me only one thing: you don't want to come to K. because of my arrows....but......you want to go to F. with me.....
Do you really think that the customs officers at the airport will take all my arrows?! ;-)
Even if they take them from me, I always can take some shripms, he, he, he .......;-)

I've been working all day and I already have 62 pages of my dictionary, but I'm already very tired of looking at the computer screen.
I'm only one week more in K. and I have to finish at least these words that I started today. I started reading the italian IRS webside.... instead of the book by Cesare Lombroso "Geniusz i opętanie".

What is that you don't like in my opinion about M.?! My Dear Niccolo, you're too delicate...
I hope you had a nice day...... Do you like your life in D.?

Tell me about our baby....What do you think about the decision of Repsol? Are the guys on the forum right that nothing really bad has happened? I still think they will grow in Russia/Ucraine and the contract with Repsol was important but not that much. On Monday we will go down, though.
See, that's why I like WDK; they don't want to depend on anyone. I hope they will be growing without such surprises.
I'm falling asleep.... Good night My Dear, please, do not work so hard!
Your Angel

My Dear Angel, My Archer and My Sherlock Holmes,

I was guarding your dreams and reading One Day, but I fell asleep. Maybe because of a new strong anti-allergic drug and pneumo vaccine I am taking to fight off my cough. Will you forgive me ? You were dreaming about our trip to F and your suitcase was full of … shrimps ;-) I love your sense of humour. You are like Emma. By the way, she was a writer too. I cannot disagree with your logic my Sherlock reg. arrows, but I do really know that my armour is not good enough to stop your arrows if you decide to fire off, shoot them at me. Could you swear, my Archer, that you would leave your arrows (take shrimps I love them !!!!) at home ? We do not want to exchange our friendship for an affair, do we?

They spoke very little of their mutual feelings: pretty phrases and warm attentions being probably unnecessary between such tired friends.
Thomas Hardy, Far from the Madding Crowd.

An affair usually means passion, fun, adventure, novelty and leaves a marriage depleted and weakened. I told you that the meaning of my life is my family. I cannot have two meanings of life, two lives, two wives and I do not want to hurt you.
You are right about Lust + Attraction + Attachment (friendship). It is not OR. It is of course AND. Maintaining balance, tensions between opposites is crucial: attraction and lust, security and excitement, continuity and novelty, safety and adventure, comfort and passion. But I look at true love in a marriage as the first law of thermodynamics: energy is conserve only changing its forms. True love is conserved with changing its forms (LAA) during years and gravitates towards friendship. By the way Dr Fisher’s experiment was scientifically correct – a perfect research methodology (how did she find theses all people?) She did that on purpose to distinguish between and quantify (chemically) forms of love. Who knows ? We will be able to measure accurately levels of our LAA in the near future ;-)

I am too tired now to write about Machiavelli’s credo, but do you agree with me that one Machiavelli vel Donal is enough in Poland? You are going to kill me for that !!! You love Machiavelli as a historian who thinks that politicians are angels nowadays !!! Wake up my Angel. The last Polish politician and statesman was Pilsudski who could say 'the end justifies the means' because he loved Poland. !!!

Our baby will be fine. I agree with some comments on our forum. Majority of our baby’s net revenue will come from Fesenko and RusOil. By the way have you check US dollar/zloty exchange rate ? People who think that they will be able buy our baby for nothing are CREAZY !!!

I admire you my Writer. My twin sister wrote a special French dictionary as a part of her PhD and I know that this is not an easy task. I am also a co-author of a few engineering books. I keep my fingers crossed for yours. Have you been thinking of putting it on web or applet store? So you are leaving K. How will I be able to deliver you songs of my lover – RF?

* * *
bez ciebie
jak bez uśmiechu
niebo pochmurnieje
słońce
wstaje tak wolno
przeciera oczy
zaspanymi dłońmi
dzień -

w trawie
przebudzony motyl
prostuje skrzydła
za chwilę
rozbłysną
zawirują najczystszą abstrakcją
kolory kolory kolory

szeptem
modlę się do uśpionego nieba
o zwykły chleb miłości
Halina Poświatowska

I have to go sleep now my Angel,

Your Niccolo vel Francesco, two saints from NC: Joan and Francesco :-)

I have forgotten to append:

Crab and Prawn Coconut Soup
Serves 2
This soup is delightfully rich and flavoursome but as it contains coconut milk rather than cream it will not leave you feeling sluggish!
Ingredients
2 tbsp sunflower oil
2 small cloves of garlic, peeled and sliced
1/2 tsp grated ginger
1 tsp lemon grass, finely chopped
200g (7oz) crab meat
500ml (18fl oz) fish or light chicken stock
1 x 165g tin coconut milk
1 tbsp fish sauce (nam pla)
50g (2oz) raw prawns, peeled
2 spring onions, trimmed and finely sliced
Juice of 1/2 lemon
1/4 red chilli, deseeded and finely chopped
1 tbsp chopped fresh coriander (leaves and stalks)
Salt and freshly ground black pepper
Method
1 In a large saucepan on a medium heat, heat the oil, then add the garlic, ginger, lemon grass and crab meat. Toss on the heat for a few minutes until light golden. Add the stock, coconut milk and fish sauce. Bring to the boil, reduce to a simmer and add the prawns.
2 Cook for 1-2 minutes (simmering all the time) until the prawns are cooked. Then add the spring onions, lemon juice, chilli and coriander, season to taste and serve.

BE CAREFUL MY ARCHER. This is really dangerous stuff. You can have poison arrows if put them into this soup ;-) My armour will not protect me !!!!

My Dear Francesco, My Niccolo,
I don't believe my eyes!! Should I exchange my love-arrows into the poisonous ones?!How could you compare M. to D.T.?! It only shows that you don't understant M. idea of the State!!! 1.) Machiavelli knew how to serve a country; he was devoted to F. and it's government and sometimes he rode a horse for three days to another States with diplomatic missions!! His thought was unidirectional; all that he wanted for his country was: strong army, a feared and respected governor ( you cannot confuse feared and hated - because it is not the same, My Dear!) and good/ just laws to protect its' citizens!!
He never sais that the end justifies the means. Do you know who said that?! The Church!! The same Vatican that put "The Prince" on the List of Prohibited Books! Why?! In the same time Luter went to the Vatican and what he saw: prostitution, Popes having illegitimate children and lovers, lust, selling absolutions!! The same Church that three years later, in 1520 "invented" the Index...and put M. works in it after the Council of Trident!! D.T. doesn't even know what the word patriot means. They all would exchange the "green island" into the "green card" in one minute in case of any danger, so please, don't even tease me.....You should read The History of Church.
I spent all day today looking among my papers for a letter of K. Warszewicki from 1586; he was the first machiavellist in Poland, the first that saw how Poland was weakening after every interregnum and he wanted the same for P. that M. wanted for F.!!! And look how we ended two centuries later....I'll copy this letter for you and some of Machiavelli's letters that I found in Polish. Wake up My Dear! Don't tell me to wake up!!! You're right only in one thing: the last patriot was P. and all the guys shot in K. during the war.
My Dear Francesco, I studied two years on the faculty of politics and international relationships... and I miss it so this year I'm going to join one of the parties.
Ufff, I have to teach you a lot.........;-)
I have so much to write to you and I'll do it tomorrow. Right now I want to ask you how you feel? I hope it's nothing serious! You should dring milk with honey or garlic. Please, don't work so hard, relax few days, please....Seriously, you should sleep more, especially when you don't feel well. Right now I'll talk to my friend on Skype and around midnight I'll finally start reading Lombroso.
My Dear, sleep well and have sweet dreams!!!!! ;-)
Your Angel

My Dear Angel, Black Swan and Archer,

You missed my point again. You are talking about a historical background of M’s works not their moral and ethical aspects, especially nowadays. You are the expert, but as I am aware he created a model of ideal, effective leader who should rule citizens or rather a ''blind crowd'' who does not question his methods and can see only ''positive'' achievements regardless of the sacrifices or consequences of an action. Did he teach that "a Prince must be a master of deception."? He imagined no limit to this principle. You have to agree that many dictators who have committed carnage against humanity fall in the category of people who have followed Machiavelli's principles. You did not convince me. I do think that his ideas in principles are NOT ethical, moral and noble. There are no situations with end-independent moral constraints and people when confronted with injustice, seek justice. I hope that you are not going to join a part which would like to introduce M’s principles in Poland. I do think that D.T. uses M’s teachings to rule our country. Perhaps you should not call me Niccolo.

It was very stupid asking you to leave your arrows at home. Simply, you cannot do it otherwise you would have to stay at home. Your arrows are you !!! You are genuine, strong, sensitive, funny, intelligent, smart, sage and erudite (how many books have you read in your life?). You have the most beautiful mind and soul, and you only might be a little bit lonely. But most of all you have a big heart. Are you real? Why does such an Angle live on our plant? Have you been punished for not your sins? Or other Angels have been very jealous of you and have exiled you from a Paradise.

Please HELP me !!! I cannot stop thinking about my Angel and Black Swan. I check this forum almost every hour. I cannot work, concentrate and think clearly. It seems that I am developing the second A in our relationship, but we have already agreed that we shouldn’t go beyond the first A (F). I have to contact Dr Fisher and ask her to scan my brain and measure the levels of dopamine and norepinephrine. Actually, I might be a very interesting case for her. Do you think that I should send her email and offer myself for tests? Do you know any anti-A drug? But a simpler solution can be if you write one letter stopping this. And you know how to do it. Otherwise I can end up with L and this will not be good for both of us. I wish you could teach me politics and international relationships and I could teach you how to be loved, but you have to find your true love and I do not want and cannot delay this. Rather I have to help you in doing this. I was praying for you yesterday asking God to give you daily bread of love.

Our relationship has end-dependent moral constraints.
Do you hate me ?

Your Francesco

My Dear Francesco,
...I beg you......I really beg you on my knees....I was so peaceful this week, beause I thought that we had agreed something...I am your friend, I accepted that you're married and I'm not tempting you anymore in these letters and I'm not going to tempt you. What is tempting? I just asked you how you feel, that's all.
Please, do not marry me with someone else every day, please, this has to be my choice and my decision. You don't know my past: my mother was 40 years older than me and in the last years of her life she was very ill and I had to stay at home and take care of her, so I started studying late, when she passed away. Right now I want to stay free because I'm simply tired of explaining every step I make. Love is sharing and giving and I'm not ready to do it and I don't want to. I wasted many years at home and right now I want to develop in many sectors; I already know that another person would be jealous of it, believe me we discussed it many times with my ex. Please, respect this.
You're right, I'm a bit lonely, but not emotionally, I'm lonely because I love discussions with wise people, but the majority of my friends that I studied with were from different towns and we don't keep in touch, they are busy with their works and daily lives. You had told me once that you liked discussions, you're of my generation and we simply talk....

Please, stop creating things and checking this forum every hour, I beg you... I don't need you to teach me how to be loved....I need your brain and your intelligence. You make me wiser and better, but please, be more linear: if you beg me to see One Day at the cinema and you want to end our friendship another day, it's just....illogical. Will you be happier if I do not write to you? Will you stop checking the forum every hour/day? Will you stop looking for me at the forum of WDK, MWT and others? Answer me sincerely: will you be happy? Are you happy right now? Do you have emotional community/understanding? Will you be happy in 5-10 years?
I'm asking you these questions because writing/not writing me will not MAKE you happier, happiness is inside, not outside.

I cannot turn my back on you, and I cannot tell you that I don't like you, please, do not demand this from me, because God would punish me severely if I wrote such thing.
I hope you feel better today. Please, rest a little bit, I beg you....
Thanks for the recipe.
You know, yesterday I went to the cinema to see One Day and they played it on Friday. I'm so stupid, I should have doublechecked it. I'm going to see it on Tue. or Wed. ;-)
Have a nice day. I'll be writing my dictionary today. I'm already so tired... and it's morning!!!
Your Angel

My Dear Angel, My Black Swan,
Please forgive me. I am the meanest and most selfish bastard in the world. I should have respected your feelings and decisions, but I constantly try to force you to look for true love and disturb you wasting your precious time while you are working. Moreover, I complicate our relationship sending illogical e-mails with terrible mood swings. I am not worthy of your friendship, I am no longer worthy of being called your friend. I didn't mean to hurt you but I did and I did it again. Many years ago I hurt my best friend and it took me a while to have him back. I am so stupid. And who is wiser here ? You or I ? I am Dexter and you are Emma.

I am sorry for my email reg. Machiavelli. It was a very unprofessional statement based on my feelings not knowledge.

I am flying tomorrow morning to W. to attend many meetings and dinners almost the whole week so I will not bother you, will have enough time to think everything over and will decide how to cure my A type disorder. Poswiatowska might help me.
* * *
odłamałam gałąź miłości
umarłą pochowałam w ziemi
i spójrz
mój ogród rozkwitł
nie można zabić miłości

jeśli ją w ziemi pogrzebiesz
odrasta
jeśli w powietrze rzucisz
liścieje skrzydłami
jeśli w wodę
skrzelą błyska
jeśli w noc
świeci

więc ją pogrzebać chciałam w moim sercu
ale serce miłości mojej było domem
moje serce otwarło swoje drzwi sercowe
i rozdzwoniło śpiewem swoje sercowe ściany
moje serce tańczyło na wierzchołkach palców

więc pogrzebałam moją miłość w głowie
i pytali ludzie
dlaczego moja głowa ma kształt kwiatu
i dlaczego moje oczy świecą jak dwie gwiazdy
i dlaczego moje wargi czerwieńsze są niż świt

chwyciłam miłość aby ją połamać
lecz giętka była oplotła mi ręce
i moje ręce związane miłością
pytają ludzie czyim jestem więźniem

You are right I cannot teach you how to be loved but maby I can teach you how to cook shrimps or fish chowder. :-)

I promise you, I will fight off my cough and A type disorder. I will listen to Thomas Hardy:

They spoke very little of their mutual feelings: pretty phrases and warm attentions being probably unnecessary between such tried friends.

Have a good week my Angel.
I keep my fingers crossed for your dictionary.

The most selfish bastard

Good evening My Dear Most Selfish Bastard, he, he, he ;-)
See, I'm still working on my dictionary. Tomorrow I'll be worring about you and your flight to Warsaw. I'm always nervous when someone of my friends go somewhere by plane, especially after what happened recently.
My Dear, I forgive you. You simply couldn't know my past, but you cannot force anyone to get married. I know you want the best for me, you don't want me to be alone, but I told you many times that I love my freedom. Right now you know why. Of course, I cannot know what's going to happen in the future, but I believe in destiny and I'm sure everything's going to be fine.
Please, I love you as a friend and I really want to be your friend, but I cannot read that you cannot sleep or work because of me. It's not my time you should be worrying about, your time is more precious than mine... When you say such things I always start worrying about you.
You can teach me many things and I hope you will soon ;-) Please, don't say that you're a bastard, because you're not... You're My Francesco, My Giacomo (Leopardi)..... maybe not Niccolo, because you're more sensible and delicate than him.
On Tue. I'm going to see One Day. I hope to share my opinions with you next weekend.
Please, I don't want you to choose between L+A+A (F).
I want you to be My Dear A (F) and I hope to hear from you soon ( I already miss you)!
Have a nice and safe trip!!!
Your Angel

My Beloved Angel,
Please believe me that our A(F) is so precious to me and I do my best not to loose it. You are too good to loose (another song by my lover RF). I went to the Sunday mass and was praying for your Legend, my Legend and our A(F). It seems that the level of A is a little bit lower, but I am not cured yet !!!

I do know that you will find your Legend – your meaning of life, because you act, you dream and you believe.
"To accomplish great things, we must not only act but also dream, not only dream but also believe." ~ Anatole France

Probably One Day movie is not the best movie in the world (book is much better), but I am interested if you can see yourself as Emma. How do you see yourself ?

My taxi arrives at 5AM, but I have to do some work now. Hopefully, I will have a nap on a plane as usual, so please do not worry about me and my trip. By the way, I am taking the Book Thief with me :-)

Your most selfish bastard

PS. Please read this text from Bankier. I like it very much and agree with this guy. He had to read Nasim Taleb !!!
https://www.bankier.pl/forum/temat_kto-zarabia-na-gieldzie,10757021.html

My Dear Angel,
I arrived in W. without any problems and had slept as a child on a plane :-) I had a very good meetings with my colleagues and who knows what might happen. I can be even back to Poland if everything will go well :-) A very interesting proposal !!!! By the way would you like to work with me ?

Please advise me. I would like to find out and learn more about Niccolo. Could you recommend me his good biography ? I would like to argue with you bout something you clearly know more about and have an appropriate scientific discussion.. I was looking at Florence guidebooks in an EMPIK store today. God, I wish I could go there with you, but first of all I have to cure my A type disorder. Do you have your favourite hotel in Florence ? I am so tired. Have to go sleep. Tomorrow 12 hr meetings and dinner. Tough job ;-)

I miss you too my Angel

Your ... Do I have any name ?

Good evening My Dear Francesco,
the movie was so beautiful that I left the cinema crying. Until now I feel so many emotions that it's hard for me to talk about them. I can only tell you that I'm much more like Dex than Emma, I have maybe only 20% of her. Why did she have to die?! You always repeat that you cannot teach me how to be loved.....I think you already did. Emma made him descent and you made me a better person. You know, I'll never meet someone like you in my life. I hope to meet you soon. Yes, I'd love to work with you. I think you're a very demanding boss, should I be scared? You always work... remember that I have to sleep sometimes!!!
This afternoon I looked for that book for you. I asked in many book stores. The latest biography of Machiavelli published in Poland was a book of Maurizio Viroli "Uśmiech Machiavellego" Wyd. W.A.B. Warszawa 2005. Unfortunately, it's sold out everywhere. You could order it. I asked in Księgarnia Akademicka if they could send it out to you, but they don't send books abroad, only in Poland. See their webside: www. akademicka.pl
tel 12 663 11 67. Try to order it in any other bookstore and someone could send it to you from Poland or.... if you can wait.... please, let me buy it for you.... please....
There was only one his biography written before by Mieczysław Maneli "Machiavelli" WP, W-wa 1968. That's all.
I have some good books about him but in Italian of the same Viroli "Il Dio di Machiavelli" (Machiavelli's God.) That's a very bood political book. It was translated in English, you should find it in D. Another one is Giorgio Inglese; I have his books but I don't like his way of writing. Or, also in English, a very good book by Friedrich Meinecke, "The Doctrine of Raison d'Etat and it's Place in Modern History", Translation Publishers, Brunshwick (USA), London (UK), 1998. My brother found it for me in the States few years ago without problems. He writes about many doctrines famous in the XVI-XVII centuries. To understand M. you have to know history very well an the Roman Law.
I've got an idea: when we work together I'll teach you italian!! ;-)
About Florence in my next letter. I hope you had a great day today. Sleep well My Dear.
I miss you.
Your crying Angel

My Dear Angel, My Dex :-)
Please don't cray !! l did not want you to be sad after watching One Day. l still think that you are wise, genuine, beautifully minded like Emma who could not find her Legend. l am the bad guy who messing your peace. Please be my Emma I will be your Dex.

I got an interesting proposal but it is a long shot, so dot not give up your plans. Be sure that I will poach you.

Thanks for biographys I will try to buy them and let you know if there are problems.

At the meeting now so I cannot write more.

Miss you so much. Have a good day my Angel.

Your Dex

Good evening My Dear Francesco, My Pure White Angel,
I hope you had a great and fruitful day and you bought some biography of Machiavelli. I'm sorry, but today I will not write you about Florence because I feel a huge inspiration!!!
Only one hour ago I started writing my dictionary; today I'm writing about insolvency of companies. I have an italian friend who runs a financial company and he helps me understand some financial words; we usually talk on Skype in the evenings about it.
My Dear, I just wanted to tell you that I'm not Emma!!! Please!!! You're creating something that doesn't exist!! First of all she was so prude!!! Remember that she didn't want to swim with him naked? I love sunbathing topless...in France, of course. ;-)
By the way, have you alread cured your A disorder?
Whe I saw them in bed for the first time something came to my mind...
Tell me something..... if we met...just like them....what do you think we would feel?
I mean..... you're not afraid of L+A factors? I'm afraid they are somewhere in us....hidden...or am I wrong?
I've been thinking about them since yesterday. That movie is not about friendship, really it's a huge study of love.
Sleep well. I miss you. Your Angel

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Sorki że dopiero teraz się odzywam, ale trochę pracy mam ostatnio, a dodatkowo "śmigałem" na walutach i daxie, gdzie trochę na eSkach udało się uciułać.
Co do miskanta to nawet tego nie liczę. Owszem jest to redukowanie kosztów własnych, ale handel tym raczej mizerny ze względu na mały popyt. Jeśli chodzi o surowiec to jestem w tym przypadku zwolennikiem wierzby energetycznej niż traw czy innych bylin.

Z drugiej strony to w sumie dobrze, że nie wchodziłem, bo tutaj trwają ciekawe rozważania i nocne rozmowy :)
Z kolei ja tam kolegi nie zamierzam namawiać, bo teraz nawet jak spadnie poniżej 0,6 zł choć wątpie to sam wszystko zbiorę. Jeżeli GPW jeszcze się obsunie to możemy mieć na WDKu 0,7-0,8zł. Na razie cisza i wielki spread między S i K.
Tak jak wspomniałaś czekamy na infa.
Pozdrowienia

Witaj, dobrze Cię widzieć! Jak tylko chcesz, to się przyłączaj do tych naszych rozważań. Ja w handel walutami nie wchodzę, ale kolega Mandelbrot może zabierze głos w tej kwestii. Już więcej Widokena nie kupuje, mam jeszcze zlecenie na 71 i starczy, chyba, że faktycznie się obsunie na niższe poziomy, chociaż wątpię żeby było 60. Wtedy też jeszcze dobrałabym min. 1/4 tego co mam, ale obawiam sie, że sie nie dopcham do kolejki. Nasz "ktoś" albo zniknął, albo obserwuje czy ktoś wystawi niżej.
Troche "skubię" BDG, dzisiaj czytałam ich DI oraz inne infa i myślę, że spółka warta zainteresowania.
Pozdrawiam i wpadaj na forum częściej!!!

Na razie jeden "wynalazek" z NC wystarczy, kiedyś jeszcze myślałem o MEW, ale wysoko stoją. Teraz najlepiej grać "krótko" i szybko realizować zyski ciąnąć stopa -takie czasy.
Widziałem, że siedzisz na Openie co też cię podkusiło, żeby w to wchodzić??!!! Spółki pana L.Cz. omija się szerokim łukiem. Sam niestety nie byłem mądrzejszy wchodząc dawno w LCC - moją największą porażkę inwestycyjną.
Mniejsza o to, WDK traktuje jak zabawę, ponieważ stan posiadania mam wysoce niezadowalający i też nie zamierzam kupować chyba, ze spadnie do wspomnianych cen. Jak będzie czas pokaże. Na giełdzie nie ma rzeczy pewnych.
Pozdrawiam