Re: Answer to your last letter.

Hello My Dear Machia,
I'm fine and I'm not taking you anywhere this night, I promise. Before 2 a.m. I was dreaming that someone was calling me and I woke up. Don't worry; I like thinking in the night because it's quiet I can gather all my thoughts. I'm just like Leopardi, my favourite writer:
http://pl.respectance.com/Maria_Wanda_Jerzyk/memorial/show/9ahe6orm0811d0/
I hope you're sleeping right now and nothing is disturbing you.

I just wanted to say that you can blame yourself for all those letters and, please, do not anymore. On the contrary, you opened my eyes on many things and I'm grateful for your friendship which is very important to me. During Christmas I just realized how many mistakes I made in the last year and also in my life, but it's not time to discuss it now.
I want to tell you that I've never met someone like you, someone that opened his heart to an unknown person from a forum, trusted her to this extent, who is so patient and who always finds time to read her stupid thughts and find an answer... ;-) I can say that i love you for all these features you have and you cannot take this away from me, you just can't and it doesnt' anything to do at this moment with desiere or sex, and you know that. I'll have the same feeling when you're 80-90 years old; it will never change. My Legend doesnt' have anything to do with because you are part of it , and I'm looking at you right now.

I have to tell this thing and it's not about me, but about you. In these two days I read and analysed your letters. You seem so vulnerable and abandoned.... Why do I have this impression, Machiavelli?! In all these songs, films, poems, books...it's you. You're just the same as Jakub from "Samotność...." Please, I beg you, save yourself, I beg you. I just want to tell you that you cannot satisfy and make happy everyone... You know, my father died at the age of 43 because he wanted to save the world, he worked all day at work and then at home. He was talking just like you: I want to educate my children, I want my family to be happy and other silly things. And you know? He died one day when I was 5 years old, my mother lived better after he died than with him, we are educated and wise (not always, as you see, he,he,he). Please, one thing is being responsable and another thing is personal happiness; I see that something is wrong with your life, it's in all those your letters.

Fortunately or unfortunately, you found me but you're lucky, because I understand you. ;-)
You asked me once, why I'm so wise... i'm not wise. I just know life. Once I wrote that I hate women, yes, I hate women, I hate them because my mother didn't know or want to save my fahter. I;m not wise, but I'm very empathetic. It's not your fault that I feel you around me, yes I felt you all day yesterday, until I saw you on MWT. It's always nice to see you on the forum, here or on BDG. You like investing, reading about it, knowing different things, so please do not resign from it, (Niki will be missing you!!), don't resign from your passions!
I'll be here too but in January I want to open a new branch of an insurance claim law firm (I'm interested in law and I know this business) in K. and for Italy and maybe also I'll give some ads on English forums. I have to tell them my vision, so I'll be working on it and then go to B.-B.
I really hope to see you (on the forum), get some nice article from you to read and remember that my invitation to K. for a nice cup of coffee is and will be always valid.
Your Angel Krecia.