Re: My Dear Francesco - read this....

My Dear Francesco,
...I beg you......I really beg you on my knees....I was so peaceful this week, beause I thought that we had agreed something...I am your friend, I accepted that you're married and I'm not tempting you anymore in these letters and I'm not going to tempt you. What is tempting? I just asked you how you feel, that's all.
Please, do not marry me with someone else every day, please, this has to be my choice and my decision. You don't know my past: my mother was 40 years older than me and in the last years of her life she was very ill and I had to stay at home and take care of her, so I started studying late, when she passed away. Right now I want to stay free because I'm simply tired of explaining every step I make. Love is sharing and giving and I'm not ready to do it and I don't want to. I wasted many years at home and right now I want to develop in many sectors; I already know that another person would be jealous of it, believe me we discussed it many times with my ex. Please, respect this.
You're right, I'm a bit lonely, but not emotionally, I'm lonely because I love discussions with wise people, but the majority of my friends that I studied with were from different towns and we don't keep in touch, they are busy with their works and daily lives. You had told me once that you liked discussions, you're of my generation and we simply talk....

Please, stop creating things and checking this forum every hour, I beg you... I don't need you to teach me how to be loved....I need your brain and your intelligence. You make me wiser and better, but please, be more linear: if you beg me to see One Day at the cinema and you want to end our friendship another day, it's just....illogical. Will you be happier if I do not write to you? Will you stop checking the forum every hour/day? Will you stop looking for me at the forum of WDK, MWT and others? Answer me sincerely: will you be happy? Are you happy right now? Do you have emotional community/understanding? Will you be happy in 5-10 years?
I'm asking you these questions because writing/not writing me will not MAKE you happier, happiness is inside, not outside.

I cannot turn my back on you, and I cannot tell you that I don't like you, please, do not demand this from me, because God would punish me severely if I wrote such thing.
I hope you feel better today. Please, rest a little bit, I beg you....
Thanks for the recipe.
You know, yesterday I went to the cinema to see One Day and they played it on Friday. I'm so stupid, I should have doublechecked it. I'm going to see it on Tue. or Wed. ;-)
Have a nice day. I'll be writing my dictionary today. I'm already so tired... and it's morning!!!
Your Angel