Good evening My Dear Niccolo,
please, tell me: are you happy in your life? In your marriage? You've already married me on this forum...without knowing me....Can you talk with your wife about all the things you talk with me: politics, stock market, literature, poetry, films, love? In all your messages I can feel or anger or love, there's nothing in between. Are you that lonely in your marriage? That's why you started writing to me: you love my passion and my devotion for these companies. Someone has already told me that I talk about my companies with such love that he never gets from his wife.
You're a wonderful, sensitive man, educated, intelligent, you deserve to be happy.You're not even 50 years old, you still have maybe 35 - 40 years to live, so please don't tell me that you want to live a double life with me. The only thing I want from you is to be honest with me and with your family. You have to make your decisions about your future.
I'm not ready to meet you in hotels for the rest of my life, you're right: I don't deserve it. One day I'd ask you for more. Can you ever give it to me? In how many years? You cannot change a sensitive woman into a bitchy one, I'm sorry.
I've decided to leave NC; today I talked with my colleague from the translation office and I begged her to find me a contract for a job as an interpreter on an italian oil rig, somewhere on the sea, far away from stock market and from bankier.pl.; I hope she'll find something for me in spring and my broker will sell my stock. In my opinion it's the best solution for us.
I wish you Merry Christmas.
Good night My Niccolo.